秋玲说，一个人一生总该趁年轻，做一些疯狂的事。

我疯狂时代的主题曲，无论多久后想起，都会是“人生海海”，“情非得已” 和 ahscds 戏剧之歌。

那段日子，我深深感动，因此牢牢记得。

何时再干些疯狂轰轰烈烈的事情呢？=p

非常享受昨天的五月天演唱会。现场的音乐很好听，也很high。3个钟头的表演，听到了“人生海海”，“天使”，“温柔（还你自由版）”，“倔强”，“离开地球表面” 等等多首好歌。



喜欢五月天和歌迷的互动，有点害羞，但亲切诚恳。他们尽力带动气氛，尤其是利用空中升降桥的时候，近距离看他们演唱，真的很开心。



阿信说，现在回到地球表面了，是时候脚踏实地做人了。说得对，总要收拾起玩乐的心情，努力工作了。

很开心，又有多一份特别回忆。

IA report is not easy to write, words fail me, damn.
trying to squeeze in macau after i end work and before bro goes off to NS, a bit mad.
seems like there's a need to spend less now so as to spend more later. can i?

looking forward to MAYDAY! looking forward to the 2b outing! looking forward to their Aquamarine treat. hahaha

seems like i have to get a camera soon, after the 5M one concussed, i've not been blogging with photos, cause the only camera left is with my bro. haha otherwise i cant show the foods i've tried, and it's so boring to blog without photos.

won't be able to see my bro enlist.. it's kinda sad, like i'll be missing one of the milestones in his life, especially when i've already missed his polytechnic convocation. talked to him, and he said he doesnt mind, but somehow it still sort of bothers me. my mum's been in a limbo since last night when she knew the date is June 13. but everything is settled after so long, so i shall leave it like that.

my mood is more or less back to normal, don't worry about me. sometimes its true that only time can solve some problems.. let's wait and see..

p.s MAYDAY!!!!
p.p.s alamak! got IA report to write :(

ate shokudo japanese food market and vietnamese food this past week. i quite like both! maybe it's the excitement of trying new places, but i think the quality and pricing is reasonable=)

think i will miss the people at the company when i end my internship, they're all very nice people! always discussing about food, and they all get along well! hope i can extend one more month..

兜兜转转，终究又回到原点。似乎什么也没改变，却又似一切都已不一样。

这一个月来，心情忐忑不安，急躁不定。体会了家庭的关爱，经历了内心的绞痛，希望从中我成长了一些些。就算最后结果并非大家所愿，但至少沟通了所有人的想法。

即便在最伤心低落的时候，也要相信雨后会有晴天。

我爱你。

爱你望着我时的无限温柔，
爱你为我的事愤愤不平，
爱你为我的眼泪心疼，
爱你为爱我而妥协牺牲，
爱你包容与爱我的一切。

我对不起你。
让你心疼，
让你委屈，
让你流泪，
让你心碎，
让你觉得孤独。

我对你无尽歉疚，怎会因爱你让你伤心不堪?
说不出任何承诺,只希望你知道,我爱你.
不会再爱别人,比爱你更多.

i was right. torn apart again. over and over. when does this end?

眼泪不停不停的往下流。傻女孩，谁说你能两全其美？

痛彻心扉，累了。放弃吗，坚持吗，逃避吗？

能改变什么吗？

什么都别问吧，我亦无法解释。

i've shed many tears. of which, this hurts the most.

my family is what i value above all. the ones who watched me grow, i believe they're the ones who love me most. i love my dad, my mum and my brother. i respect my parents and i hope to gain the respect of my brother. i often hope my relationship with them is always harmonious and warm.

and now i feel like i've lost my brother's love. and my parents no longer know what to say to me. perhaps i could push the blame. perhaps i could deny my fault. but i know no one can make things this way if i don't want to. which means i'm the one who allowed things to become this dire.

i let this happen once before, and now i let it happen again. to drift away from the comfort of their love, to put distance and worry into our family conversations. i'm guilty of all these again. i thought i became smarter. i thought it will be right this time. but i forgot i cant change another person's viewpoint. i cant make them see my family's actions as love and not restrictions, their nagging as concern, their love as just wanting me to be happy.

we only want you to be happy, they say, and cause i know how true this is, i cant help but cry. i've let them down. i cant even fulfill their simple expectations that i never veer far from their love, even while seeking the love of my life.

the previous time, i did not regret my decision, though i occasionally hoped it could have been otherwise. this time, i am rapidly drained of resolve to hold on, and yet my heart hurts at the thought of leaving it all behind.

i would love for acceptance and an amicable relationship from both sides. but i cant have it, so now i'm left to choose. this situation cannot remain unchanged for long, i cant take it.

don't say i'm giving up so easily. you don't know how hard i try to change the situation. i'm guilty of leaning severely towards your viewpoint, and now i'm being awakened to the seriousness by my brother.

我的世界里，亲情至上。对不起，我不能把你当作我唯一的一切。

things have temporarily settled down into a fragile agreement. but how long can it last, is a question that constantly occupies my mind and heart. hoping, waiting, jittery nerves, have all become part of my life. i shall remember these years as fraught with worry and heart ache.

i keep quiet not because i'm pretending the problem doesn't exist. but sometimes the feeling can't be aptly put into words, and i fear once the words leave my mouth, there'll be some irreversible damage.

how did it come to this? i remember how close we once were. now, we take careful calculated steps in all our interaction.

who am i talking about? i'm not even sure myself.

i need to start on IA report soon. 26th april is the only day i'm looking forward to

just when i'm wallowing in self-pity, thinking i have all the worst troubles in universe, something like this happens and puts everything into perspective.

treasure those around you.

nothing new, just the same old same old, making me such a pathetically weepy character. boo

心累了。闭上眼睛，泪就不自主地流下。连强颜欢笑的力气都没有，无法安慰自己。

拔河，原来最累的是绳索。没力了，却又不能放弃。这样拉锯，还能耐多久。

逃避不能解决问题。沟通亦然没有结果。妥协？他所谓的让步，并非他肯定的。

最令人心痛的，莫过于你我他都伤了心。而我也时时刻刻感到亏欠与歉疚。爱，是能令人窒息的。

泪眼汪汪的频率，自己想了也烦，曾几何时变得如此不堪一击。想狠下心不管了，却太脆弱，做不到。还满讨厌自己伤害周围的人。

the hurt inflicted on the heart, cannot be so easily resolved by a thousand sorry.

i love ktving with the girls! we're all mad, but i know two of them are aunties, and two of them are lusting after edison wahaha=p missed weeinn alot, poor girl seems to have been pretty stressed out lately. hope we did her good with our laughter and lameness, hang in there and jiayou! =)

i don't like people who keep changing their minds and confusing everyone else. blea.

maybe i should perfect the song 是非题. haha

甜蜜的恋人未满，当然谁都期待。但持久的恋爱ing，不是更美好吗？别操之过急，静心等待，或许转角就能遇到爱。